Sylvia's Journal

Today was Memorial Day which, in Manchester, is a standard ritual that Axel wouldn’t want to miss for the world. He rushed down to catch the memorial throwing of flowers in the ocean to honor the fallen navy heroes; then some coffee and on to the big event at the main cemetery for the remaining military branches.

I caught up with him, on foot, and marveled at the simple pleasure of walking freely and in peace. Such a treat.

Somewhere in between the usual halting recitation by a high school student of the Gettysburg Address (poppies in Flanders Field), wreath laying, 3 gun salutes, and the school band’s rendering of the national anthem we listened to a most wonderful keynote address about the refining of silver as a metaphor for burning off imperfections and seeing one’s face mirrored clearly in the molten silver – about God’s refining fire and taking care of our veterans. I am not doing it any justice right now.

We decided that the speech could have veered off in the wrong direction but it didn’t and we were spell-bound by the stories that brought the metaphor to life.

On our way back we visited family- Manchester is a small town and one cannot simply walk past the open windows of relatives. It took us the entire morning to walk back home.
In the afternoon we visited friends in neighboring towns, delivered gifts and made plans for my birthday party in Holland, later this year. It was a day of visiting, of being family and friends.

I woke up early to see the remains of the party. Not all that bad – I have seen worse. Someone was sleeping by the fire on the beach and someone else on our couch. Steve’s mom and sister had left for Toronto, a very long drive, before anyone was up and left a note. We didn’t get to say goodbye.

I finished most of what was left of the French cheese platter for breakfast, something I came to regret. French cheese is one of these things that I dream about in Afghanistan but my stomach isn’t quite used to that kind of rich food anymore.

Sita and Jim took off next to attend the funeral of their sister-in-law’s dad who died in a car accident, too young, too painful. They left dressed in mourning clothes on a beautiful spring morning.

The few people who had spent the night woke up and left, one by one, and we started the clean up. At 9:30 AM, as used to be my routine, I biked to Quaker meeting but not after having washed the squirrel debris off my bicycle and pumping new air into the flat tires.

The bike ride to Quaker meeting is always meditative and used to be an integral part of my religious practice before we moved to Kabul. I needed that half hour badly after the disappointing news that my request for a few days of leave to attend Rutger and Payal’s monsoon wedding in July in Kerala (India), had been denied. I forced myself to count my blessings and be cool about it.

In meeting we found just a handful of people. It is Memorial Day weekend and Americans tend to go places. One hour of silence is what I needed although I could never quite keep my thoughts from racing then this way, then that. I have too much on my mind – the forced stillness was good but also ineffective. There was no communing with God as I had hoped.

Axel and I, accompanied by the happy young couple and their two dogs, went for a long walk through Ravenswood where nature offered all its springtime treasures for our viewing pleasure: Lady Slippers, wild Irises, pre-bloom Trillium, frogs, mosses, tiny Sassafras saplings, Reishi mushrooms and more. Tessa and I clicked away to catch each on camera – for her to work into art one day and for me to treasure back in hot and dry Kabul.

Afterwards we went to Downriver Ice Cream, run by our friends the Ahearns, and gorged ourselves on double scoops of Big Mug, O’ Snap, Orange Creamsicle, Deer Tracks, Snail Trails and River Runs Through It – all variations on cream, chocolate, cookies and sugar syrups.

Having satisfied our craving for ice cream we fulfilled our filial duties by planting geraniums, an annual ritual that we missed last year, at the Magnuson graves. The ancestors are now presentable again, their grave sites neat and colorful for the Memorial Day festivities across the street from the Cemetery.

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The day slowly transformed from promising cold to the sunny summer day that makes Lobster Cove the best place for a party. Tessa got to have her friends over to celebrate her graduation and we got to have our friends over to do that too and welcome us back. It feels as if we never left. It is good to be home.

Around sunset Steve gathered everyone on the beach and positioned himself on a rock to give a speech. This is not your typical behavior for someone who likes to blend into the backdrop. Some of us knew what was coming but Tessa did not. He popped the question in the same breath with which he congratulated her on her graduation.

Tessa’s incredulous face, the tears, the hugs, then the ring, all was put on tape and many of us pinked away some tears. It was all so very romantic and beautiful, against the backdrop of the setting sun, the cove and her dearest friends and family standing in a circle around her. More hugs, more tears. Not everyone heard her say yes, but she did.

Within minutes Sita had alerted facebook from her iPhone about her sister’s engagement, accompanied by a picture of her very surprised sister. Tessa then changed her status to make it official. Facebook rules!

We’ve done well as parents – it takes a long time before you can say this – one married, a home owner and financially independent from us; the other a bachelor in the fine art of graphic design.

We watched beaming with pride as Tessa strode among the 62 other Montserrat graduates to the podium on her 5 inch heels and in her disposable black gown and cap to receive her diploma. She was one of 6 with high honors, her name marked with two asterisks in the program. Yeah for Tessa!

Sitting on the deck of one of our favorite restaurants in Gloucester, we celebrated her accomplishment by ordering a sushi boat – one of those things I often fantasized about in Kabul but totally out of our reach over there.

Afterwards we strolled along Bearskin Neck and touched all the jewelry pieces in several stores before landing in Corey’s workshop where Tessa hangs out a lot to shoot the breeze and admire his wonderful paintings – several of which she has already acquired over the last few years.

Back home Axel pulled out the kayaks, it was that kind of summer evening, and paddled across the full cove, breathing in the salty sea air that we so miss in Kabul.

Still somewhat jet-lagged I retired early just as the first part of the two day long party was starting.

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Sally had welcomed me back to the US with an invitation to go flying over Essex County. I wrote her right back and asked ‘when?’ And so, while Tessa was rehearsing her graduation ceremony on her 5 inch heels, we took to the skies with Sally; Axel took his first flight since July 14, 2007. No sweat.

Below us was Essex County at its best. ‘This,’ said Sally, pointing at what laid before us, ‘is my office.’ She instructs people in the art of flying. That’s why Axel and I felt at ease in her small plane.

I realized how much I have forgotten about flying. When she offered I take the controls I accepted only the easiest task – cruising straight ahead. I will register as her student once we are back. I have a lot of catching up to do.

After flying came the dentist (3 cavities for Axel, 0 for me) and then we drove to DJ in Rockport to hang out for awhile and check out the new leather merchandise, especially shoes and handbags. On an otherwise slow day I made sure there was at least one buyer; the sale completed once Tessa showed up and dispensed her shoe advice, something I take very seriously. She approved of my selection.

On our way home we picked up Sita and Jim who were walking through the old Magnuson greenhouse, abandoned and for sale. Sorry sights like that always tug at Sita’s heart strings and bring out her discerning eye as a photographer of anyting that deserves our pity. One of her pictures, she told me, she posted on facebook with a request for 1 million dollar – just in case there were any people out there who were dying to pump money into a something most of us would consider derelict and hopeless, but she has a vision.

After a dinner of fish and greens, Tessa’s friend Val showed up to do a graduation henna tattoo on Tessa’s arm. It looked like an intricate Magic Shell designas the dark brown substance hardened on her skin. I marveled at Val’s steady hand that copied the design flawlessly from a page to Tessa’s arm. With her 3 feet of matted red hair, her 5 inch heels, her tattoo she will stand out a bit I suspect. Add to that the yellow cord for high honors around her neck and she will be irresistible.

Long after dark Steve drove up from Vermont with his mom and sister (from Toronto) and 3 dogs, two of them Tessa and Steve’s. I finally got to see our new grand-puppy Oona that isn’t all that small anymore and has surpassed her sister Chicha in weight and size. The large number of dogs (Val had brought hers as well) and the jumping and hugging and petting that went on in our small kitchen released enough dog hair and dander that Axel’s dog allergy, determined by the allergy specialist last week, was painfully confirmed.

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I am still a bit out of my rhythm and haven’t returned to my disciplined daily writing – I crashed around 8 PM.

I spent my entire first day in the US at our Cambridge HQ. It wasn’t just about being devoted to my work but also to see some friends, pick up my new computer, an and take care of other matters that needed attention. I arrived early to catch one of my colleagues before he went into a three-day training on business development.

It is strange to come back to a place that used to be my daily destination for so many years. There were many new faces, the carpets had been changed (one thing that the Afghans know to do a whole lot better than the Americans) and the walls had been painted in new colors. There were also a lot of young women who used to be single college grads and are now moms. They proudly showed me pictures of their babies and toddlers.
I experienced the commute again which made me think twice about returning to HQ and doing this on a daily basis again. Being driven around in Kabul isn’t so bad, even the traffic is not as bad. What we would consider a very long drive in and out of town would be normal stop and go here. At least in Kabul there is a lot of interesting stuff to see while stuck in traffic.

And so my plans for after Kabul remain vague and my interest in finding another field position has gone up by a few notches.

On the other hand, being in Lobster Cove is wonderful. It was another sunny day, the grass was bright green, and fish in the cove (Axel caught one – Tessa and I sputtered about animal abuse when we saw the poor thing flapping around on the lawn). When I got home, about 11 hours after I had left in the morning, Axel was hunkered over a large chunk of meet on a beach fire, beer in hand while Tessa prepared the rest of dinner – freshly picked asparagus and new potatoes.