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Settling into our new temporary digs

As with so many other things during this trip, I was wrong about where we would be staying. The pattern seems to be that I get wrong or incomplete information followed by a surprise.

The workshop started on Sunday night with the arrival of everyone at the conference center. It was as if we also surprised the conference staff. There was much coming and going and missing and then getting towels and soap and toilet paper and finding matches to rooms and packs of remotes (airco, TV, cable), tied together with the masking tape, probably left over from a previous workshop.

The arrangement for food was not clear – at least three quarters of the participants were fasting and their meal times do not coincide with ours, the non-fasting minority. They eat after it is dark and before daybreak, while we do the opposite. It’s all very complicated to organize – there are the per diem arrangements that require much negotiation and calculation. It is falling on the shoulders of the brand new office assistant who came in from a neighboring country – and she is doing admirably well it seems.

It took a while to get everyone settled and by then it was time for ‘la rupture,’ the breaking of the fast. First there was the coffee, tea or Citronelle, next to the large swimming pool, then the first prayer and then, by now in the dark, a meal that was only recognizable by the flashlights of our smart phones (a piece of beef and an onion sauce with limp and lukewarm fries – not bad, just limp).

A reunion and prepping for class

It was another one of those ‘retrouvailles’ like I had in Niger some months ago. Here in Bamako I met up with a woman who played big in the family planning league in Mali, all those years back. She is also retired, in the way I plan to ‘retire.’ We hadn’t seen each other in 24 years and when we looked at each other we both decided we have aged well and actually hadn’t changed all that much. My white hairs are visible but hers were under a scarf so there is no telling. We sat in the shade by the pool and talked and talked until we had exhausted all topics which ranged far and wide.

She had lost her husband about 8 years ago – he had two warnings that he needed to change his life style – she had given up long before (“he never listened to me”) but then he also didn’t listen to the doctors; and so when the third heart attack came on there was no one to save him. I couldn’t quite gauge whether his departure was upsetting and traumatic or not and I decided not to ask. How would one ask anyways? (Did you mind?)

The rest of the day I prepared for the workshop on governance that starts on Monday. I am working a bit in a vacuum because my colleagues are on a long holiday weekend, something I only found out on Thursday – we did agree on the design for the four days but a lot of the detail work, such as preparing the facilitation notes, slides, handouts and whatnot fell to me.

I had to educate myself on the language of governance in French, like finding out what the difference is between ‘statut’ and ‘reglement interieur,’ sometimes squished together as ‘SRI.’ Google and a reliable internet connection turned out to be invaluable. Thanks to the good internet Axel and I chatted for a bit – I won’t be there to put in the geraniums at the ancestral graves and drop some thanksgiving vodka on the graves of my in-laws – they were quite fond of the liquid – as well as the grave of my grand in-laws who were not, as they were teetotalers.

For exercise I did my 30 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes in the pool, offset by eating a few ‘palets Bretons (“pur beurre”),’ those very buttery cookies that Air France hands out in its salon, and that are quite addictive.

I tried watching the news for a while and was heartened by the Irish popular vote to start disassembling Ireland’s long male hegemony regarding the role and place of women. While some people may believe that we are in a downturn when it comes to liberal values and civility, this showed to me (as well as Weinstein in shackles) that we are in an upward move and that the antics of some of our world leaders are just blips on the screen, temporary disturbances – the line that connects the dots is going up and up.

Ripe mangoes and a pool

Very few people (and certainly very few tourists, if any) go to Mali these days. The plane from Paris was half full. I had my pick of several empty rows. It was quite a contrast with my trip to Burundi.

It’s hot in Mali in May, very hot; It was 102F when we landed in the middle of the afternoon. A rainstorm cooled things off a bit, down to the lower 90s, but the mercury is going up again and on Sunday it will be 107F according to my weather app.

Tourists might not come because of the heat but they are also staying away because of the periodic news about attacks which are all over the place and unpredictable. Except for the north and northeast where they are happening often enough to trigger travel advisories for those who can postpone their trips or have no real business there, like tourists.

And finally it is the holy month of Ramadan which means that during daylight most eating establishments are closed – tourists might have eaten there but they’re not here. In our hotel the food is kept in the freezer. I eat defrosted chicken and fish with fries, rice or a salad, and tomato sauce for color. The hotel has very few guests, so the food doesn’t get eaten fast enough.

But it’s not all bad. The empty hotel means there are few people who use the fitness equipment or the lovely pool. It is also easy to meet the few hardy folks who are here. There are three Dutch gentlemen who I suprised when I stopped swimming and offered to take a photo (in Dutch) as they were trying to fit themselves into a selfie.

The hotel room I was given is in fact a small apartment with a living room, a big desk, a bedroom, a bathroom and a well equipped kitchenette – plus excellent internet service. Because of the kitchenette I can eat the enormous juicy mangoes to my heart’s content.

A French Canadian gentleman struck up a conversation when I went for my daily swim (the little action at the hotel seems to be at the swimming pool). He invited me to join him and a compatriot to go out of the hotel for dinner and I said yes, happy to escape for a bit after a hard days work at my big desk.

We discovered that we are both two weeks short of a very long period of employment at one organization – he 25 years with a firm in Canada and I 31 years with MSH. We are both ending the same day, June 15, and we are both having a goodbye party. The only difference is that he resigned voluntary, I did not. But our feelings about the new freedom are the same – staying involved with a few gigs here and there and enjoying life the rest of the time.

Total strangers only hours before, we had a wonderful time together. His comrade didn’t show up as, we learned later, he was urgently called to his embassy to fix the entire security installation because the rainstorm and thunder had blown a few fuses and so disarmed the system. Nature can always best us, even the most sophisticated IT systems it seems. Besides, as we learned in Kabul, security is mostly an illusion; there is no protection, just luck, when a bomb gets detonated at an hotel or restaurant creating the panic that activates the neurochemicals. It’s those that determine everyone’ s next act and our fate.

Lane change

I have started my last month at MSH. The lane change, as I consider it, turns out to be more complicated than I thought. For the first time since I (not really) negotiated my salary in 31 years I have to think about what my compensation should be. As a self-employed person I have to take care of things, purchase equipment and services that were provided to me as an employee. I have to figure, under Trump’s new tax laws, how I should position myself, tax-wise.  I am educating myself, calling on family, current and ex colleagues and other experts. The more I learn the more opaque everything is becoming – things that seemed simple at the start of my lane change. I am relying heavily on my two daughters who have learned things for me, sometimes the hard way.

I have added myself to Sita’s MassCollaborative enterprise. Her partners are OK with me, this white haired person, to join their team of high energy, creative and entrepreneurial millennials. Some people congratulate me on my retirement, but I am not retiring, just changing lanes.

Part of the new freedom is that Axel and I can now do things spontaneously, like attending one of the Cape Cod Institute sessions, as we did for years in the past. But this time we won’t be camping out at the Wellfleet Audubon campground, nice as that sound. We got a friend of a friend to lend us her summer cottage in Brewster. We also won’t bring the kayaks as we used to do, for our sundowner outings. My arm strength is not what it used to be and my rotator cuffs never quite recovered. We are thinking of bringing our bikes, maybe. The essential luggage will be for hiking, reading, writing, sketching and watercoloring.

We are also traveling to San Diego for a reunion of colleagues who I first met at my very first American job. We are still friends, 35 years later. We try to see each other at least once a year – it’s a ZugFest, named after our much revered author Leane Zugsmith, who is our raison d’etre, aside from the friendships.

Enjoying life, including this kind of travel as well as paying gigs, is our motto now. Axel is only 9 years away from the average life expectancy for white males in the US. Nine years, at this stage in our life, is nothing. We are starting to lose friends here and there, men and women; none made it to their gender’s average. This is an uncomfortable realization, the fact that we are entering this corridor towards ‘average.’ It’s a lane change alright, to the lane on the right, the slower one while the millennials and those coming after them are pressing on in the fast lane. But slow does not have to be boring.

Killing 33 hours of time

At the airport in Addis I decided to kill the first part of my three and a half hour wait by treating my dusty and scuffed leather shoes to a proper (professional) shoeshine. The one-eyed shoeshine man told me he was studying for his MBA, is a motivational speaker, sells phone cards and rides a taxi. He is one of those jacks-of-all-trades whose entire life seems to be focused on getting his (four) children the kinds of chances he never had as a child. I suspect they will all end up with a degree and do better than their parents.

We had a wonderful conversation. Of course he could have made all of his stories up to impress me and get me to pay more than his stated fee. But when he showed me his crib notes – he had an exam the next day – and talked about Mr. Douglas’ Theory X and Y (referring to Douglas McGregor), and X being more prevalent in Africa, I was convinced he knew what he was talking about. I have yet to have a conversation about McGregor’s theory with a shoeshine man anywhere in the world. I gave him a 25% tip.

The airport was relatively empty, awaiting the arrival of passengers that would fill half a dozen jumbos to various points west and north.  I found a seat at the table of a very extraverted father-daughter couple. They has just flown in from Dad’s ancestral lands (Somaliland, not Somalia) and were on their way home to Toronto. The daughter had downloaded Fire and Fury on dad’s kindle who she said was not a good sleeper and needed to have something to get him engaged and enraged for the long flight home. We drank coffee, then a beer and chatted about the experience she had on her first trip to Africa as a woman in a strict Muslim society. She was wrapped daily in polyester clothes, and a hijab that was never tight enough, by her aunties and cousins. She could laugh about it now; it didn’t spoil the fun in spite of the heat. That too was a wonderful conversation and killed another hour or so.

And then it was time to board the plane for the 17 hour trip to Dulles. It is three hours longer than on the way out, partially because of the trade winds, and partially because of a one hour crew change and refueling stop in Dublin.  Since it was a night flight the missionaries, if there were any on board – I saw no groups in matching T-shorts – where sleeping like most other people. I completed one 1000 piece (electronica) puzzle, finished one of my friend Edith’s mystery books in a series about a Quaker midwife who solves mystery after mystery in 1880 Amesbury, knocked myself out for a bit and watched East of Eden. It was all in all a better experience than on the outbound.

In Dulles another 3 hour wait, which passed quickly once again because of yet another interesting conversation. This time with a fellow development worker who had been in charge of youth employment during the Carter years and is now flying back and forth to Africa and Asia, just like me.

I called Axel who is in New York with Jim and the grandkids to pay their respects and celebrate the life of the husband of Sita’s Brooklyn preschool teacher. He was one of the post 9/11 clean up guys and died with a body riddled with cancer.

Exactly 33 hours after I left my hotel in Bujumbura I stepped into our house where large bundles of flowers from Tessa and Steve awaited me for mother’s day.

The manual system

The Burundi airport system has a long way to go. Having done my check-in online I thought I’d be good but I hadn’t printed my boarding passes, only had them on my phone.  I learned this doesn’t count when the electronic system goes out and the manual system kicks in. There was this familiar phrase, ‘the system is down.’

A lot of people were busy running hither and thither, with little progress in the otherwise short line in front of the check in counter.  The Burundi Air guy in charge of the issuing of hand-written boarding passes did not have a discernible routine to deal with the circumstance (which he told me is common). Sometimes he would take a passport and disappear to some official upstairs as he later explained, sometimes he would fill in the blank spaces on a boarding pass, and sometimes he would shake his head and pointed to place where people were waiting for god knows what. One distraught UN lady told me the (handwritten) dates on her boarding pass were all wrong, and her name only had a remote resemblance to her passport name. I saw her again in the plane where she was waiting for her assigned seat on a non-existing row.

There were the usual duplicate security checks, one around the corner of the other. At the first one I had to unpack my bag because they had found something metal: a small tea spoon. Over the years I have had to hand over scotch tape (Afghanistan), a small nail clipper (Rwanda) and now this. But when they realized it was a tea spoon and not a soup spoon, I was allowed to keep it; if it had been a soup spoon I would have had to hand it in. Imagine the havoc one could create with a soup spoon!

We left 30 minutes late, which was actually quite amazing, given the cumbersome manual check in processes. Our first stop was Goma on the far eastern edge of the DRC, bordering Rwanda. This is where I bought toothpaste nearly 3 decades ago for two and a half million Zaires. The flight lasted all of 30 minutes flight and then required an hour for refueling and a crew change as the plane had come from someplace else before picking me up in Bujumbura. Then onwards to Addis.

In front of me was a Sikh family with two year old twins who would cry at the drop of a hat, in synchronized high pitched wails. Next to me was a young man reading his bible.  We started to talk. It turned out his worked on a DAI project. He proudly mentioned that the CEO of DAI was a Christian.

‘Oh,” I said (naively), why is that so important? A mistake. He started to read me all sorts of verses from the bible that showed that only those who had found Jesus were saved. Here was absolute truth. For him the bible was the source of all knowing, all advice and all comfort. “What about the Sikhs in front of us,” I asked? “No, no one can be saved except those believing in Jesus,” was his startled response.

He cosied up to me, moving into my personal space, pointing at this and that Bible verse. He clearly knew his book. With little efforts he found all sorts of passages (mainly from John) which he thought would make me change my mind about why Christians were the chosen – at least those who had found Jesus.

When he showed me a passage about jews I got lost. He started to ramble and I decided it was time to extract myself from his bible-supported monologue. He didn’t give up so easily though and kept asking whether I had found or was searching for Jesus (in the latter case he could help me).  I said I was tired and pretended to take a nap.

It makes me consider the success of the early Christian missionaries in Africa. They produced the kind of results (sustainable, ownership) that we development workers can only dream of. I suspect one of the ingredients in their secret sauce was education.

A tiny taste of Burundi

Although I have been in Burundi for nearly a week, I can’t say I have been to Burundi. All I have seen is the inside of a hotel in the capital city. During our lunch break yesterday I visited with some of my co-workers, an empty artisanat with unemployed woodcarvers listlessly working on yet another piece of statuary that no one comes to buy. It was kind of depressing. I asked who bought their stuff and people looked expectantly at me. The tourists are not coming anymore since Burundi is in the category – at least in the minds of travel agents – of politically volatile places.

I had to disappoint these carvers. I don’t like the gleaming ebony-looking statues of women and babies, hippos or turtles. I am trying to remove such things from my house – the many gifts I have accumulated over the years. It’s time for them to find another home.

One of my co-workers had ordered, during her last visit here, two very large carvings of hippos. They must weigh quite a lot, being the size of 6 month old babies (each). She brought two empty suitcases for a fitting so that the hippos can return comfortably with her to the US later this week.

My only oter escape from the hotel this week was arranged yesterday by a team from Burundi that participated in the Senior Leadership Program we did a few years ago with ICRC. That program had teams from several French speaking countries across the African continent. They took on a big challenge of changing services, policies, access, or some other aspect of inclusion to benefit people with physical disabilities in their respective countries. ‘

I had alerted the team that I was coming and they enthusiastically responded that I should reserve at least one evening to join them. They came to pick me up at the hotel last night and took me to a popular open air restaurant. Open air here means mosquitoes, hordes of them – Bujumbura lies on the edge of lake Tanganyika – a breeding site for mosquitoes; and mosquities means malaria. Although I am taking malaria prophylaxis, I had forgotten to bring mosquito repellent. In the hotel I had gotten away without this because of the airco and elevation of the hotel and my room – mosquitoes don’t fly that high and don’t like the cold air. But the restaurant had none of that and the mosquitoes were thick – something the restaurant staff knew and so a repellent cream was brought to my table.

We had a joyous reunion. I asked the team to tell me how they acting as (senior) leaders now and to give me examples, and what had changed in their lives. It was so wonderfully touching and gratifying. I don’t claim to do much about health systems strengthening, which is MSH’s current niche. For me that is too big. I rather return to the orginal mission which is about helping people to bridge the gap between what we know and how we act. And so I prefer to focus on helping individuals be more joyful, less angry and feel more in control, despite being in places where there is little control over the circumstances of one’s live. We can always be in control of ourselves.

Flights of not so fancy

On Saturday I got up again at 3AM and retraced my steps to DC for the second time this week, this time to connect to an 11AM light from Dulles to Addis, the hub from which I would transit to my final destination. The Dulles-Addis flight took 13 hours, on Ethiopian Airlines, member of the Star Alliance for which I don’t have special status – the kind of status (gold or higher) that gets you in the short line or possibly into a lounge.

I sat in the back of the plane, surrounded by some people who were going home, others on their return trip probably people from the diaspora, on the outbound, to visit the relatives or try their luck. Diaspora Ethiopians were lured back some years ago with very appealing resettling arrangements. There were many Americans on the plane.. I assume some of them live and work in Ethiopia and some who go farther afield for their work, like me. Addis is a major African hub.

There are always (always) missionaries on the planes to Africa. They go there on short stints to fulfil their Christian duties – ministering to those less well off. On my plane there were quite a few. They were a peppy talkative bunch, waking me up and keeping me awake with their incessant chatter. The talk, the heat, the noise, the uncomfortably worn and sagging old seats, spaced so close together that my knees touched the seat in front, made this one of my more memorable unpleasant trips.

Among the travelers to Addis was a gaggle of young women wearing black T-shirts that gave them away: Christian nurses on a mission. Their T-shirts said ‘You see a leader.’ I could have gone up to them to ask what makes them leaders but I didn’t have the nerve. I suppose if you think you are a leader, then maybe you are. I only hope that they are leaders of the listener kind, not the telling kind.

I tried to watch some movies to kill time. I watched Blade Runner for a few minutes until the first violent act occurred. The audio was so bad I couldn’t understand the dialogue which might have compensated for the violence; then I tried the superhero movie, without sounds, which was amusing for a while before putting me to sleep. And finally I watched the story of Deep Throat, the ultimate whistleblower who brought Nixon down. It did make me think of Comey and the White house interfering with the FBI– there are more than a few parallels. Someone on my row was reading Comey’s book. It was displayed for impulse buys at the Dulles airport, for people looking for some light reading en route. Everything (nurses, movies, books) seems to be about leadership.

Good old days

Leaving an organization after 30+ years automatically makes you old, and departures lead to reminiscing. The former was evident when, back at the DC airport, I found an empty seat across from two men engaged in a conversation that, although in English, might as well have been in Sanskrit. I knew they were tech people but that’s all – they strung together words into sentences that made no sense, sometimes I didn’t even know which words constituted the verbs and which the nouns. The one already young looking man complained about young people he was mentoring. So if he was now old, what did that make me?

As for the reminiscences, I have been thinking a lot about the world of work I entered in, my first overseas jobs in Lebanon (1977) and then Senegal (1979) and the pace of life at that time.  I would not be saying on Thursday that I didn’t know whether I would be travelling on Saturday. Now, the only reason I still don’t know for sure, late this Thursday, is that I haven’t seen my Entry Authorization letter because it couldn’t be scanned all these thousands of miles east of us because the scanner broke down and the IT guy had gone home, otherwise I would have known and finalized my ticket. A glitch.

In the olden days I would have to have my handwritten ticket in hand – the one with the multiple red carbon copies. If it wasn’t given to me some days before a trip I couldn’t leave. No internet, no faxes, no nothing instant. I made about 3 trips a year – more would have been a stretch on what was humanly and technologically possible.

That was also the time when business class tickets were just a few hundred dollars more than regular economy seats, and the difference was not as stark as it is now. No flatbeds. There was a time when a trip of more than 14 hours door to door entitled us to travel in business class.

Sometimes it really feels like the ‘olden days’ were better. At least they were slower. I try to remember whether we were all more patient then. Now I see impatience everywhere. “Why didn’t you reply to the email, the text, the call I made a few minutes ago?” I remember setting up a phone call with a Peace Corps volunteer who lived 100 kilometers away from the closest phone that could be used for intercontinental calls, about 6 weeks ahead of time, using a cable to communicate via the nearest post office, most likely in the local capital and then dispatched on a motor cycle or a bush taxi.

An uncertain new world

My new reality will be that nothing is certain until it is certain – in the past when that happened, when trips got canceled, I was still paid, but after June this will no longer be the case. I will have to sign contracts that will be to the contractor’s advantage – there will be clauses about Intellectual Property (IP) and cancellations without cause. This has already happened with the World Bank assignment in Saudi Arabia – it was canceled, at least for this fiscal year I was told, so there is the possibility of a be chance in the next fiscal year, whenever that starts in Saudi Arabia. It’s quite disappointing and also a cause of worry that if it comes around again, I will already have promised my time to another project. “Welcome to the world of consulting,” say my free agent friends.

In the meantime I am enjoying the last of the paychecks that will continue to come in with great regularity until late June, while also enjoying the prospects of being free from the early morning commute and the dependence on weekends to do the extracurricular things I like to do.

I am busy filling in all the paperwork for a brief teaching stint this summer in a Simmons College MBA program, covering the organizational behavior (OB) part of business administration. It’s a well-designed curriculum that covers all the things I am passionate about. I don’t have to design anything, just read tons of articles and books, though some of them I already know, and some have been written by my OB friends. I am excited about having access to all these articles and reading up on some OB topics I have neglected.


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