Sylvia's Journal

Everyone is gone. It was both sad when the last left, including Axel who left with Sita for Norway, and exhilarating. What was I going to do with all these hours alone after work, with no expectations, no obligations, no need to think about dinner? As much as I relished our busy two weeks, before and after the wedding, I now relish the total freedom of doing as I please.

The first few days I was busy with an event at MSH that is part of the Japanese Women’s Leadership Initiative, an annual program that brings promising young Japanese women from the public and private sectors (for profit and nonprofit) to Boston. Here they spend an entire month learning about the ins and outs of leading change, nonprofit management, fundraising, and what it means to be a woman working for social change in a society back home that has few role models for them.

It is my candy land version of work: I am in charge and given total freedom to design the program as I see fit and invite whomever I want from my colleagues to contribute. I bring interesting colleagues in and listen to their stories. For three days we sit around a table, talk, listen explore, experiment around the notion of leadership. I ‘feed’ them tools and instruments to learn more about themselves and about the dynamics when people come together. It is my favorite activity of the year that doesn’t require travel, just 3 very long days. Next week there will be the final presentation practice runs, sushi and celebrations before they all go home.

In the meantime my calendar is beginning to fill up, albeit it a bit late, with promises of trips to faraway lands before the year is over.

It is now exactly one week ago that we gathered at Tessa’s house and were in the midst of worry; would or would the groom be able to attend his own wedding? Once the ceremony had been postponed to day 2 we could relax and take the day as it came. It did come, the groom was in good enough shape to participate in the postponed ceremony and we had the wedding that Tessa had envisioned some 5 years ago. Months (years?) of intense preparation and poof, all is past.

My brother and his wife went west with Sita and Jim and then further west to be the lone tourists at Naumkeag, the Field Farm of the Trust for Public lands, the Clark Institute, the Norman Rockwell museum, and Mass Moka. Axel had prepared a list of attractions which they followed to the letter, to everyone’s delight. Axel should have been a tour guide and we should have been with them, as most of these sights I have not seen myself.

In the meantime we entertained the ever diminishing crowd of Dutch travelers at Lobster Cove and in Gloucester; first in the rain and then on 10+ autumn days. One left on Monday, two more on Tuesday and two more today.

Despite the fact that it is now officially fall we swam, cooked up a storm and remembered family history – amazingly different depending on who does the talking: the oldest or the middle child or me, the before last one. We just sat in the sun, reading or playing with old or newly acquired iPads. I forgot nearly completely that I have an employer 30 miles south (I am one of the few in this company) and had a wonderful time doing nothing.

Day two of the wedding arrived. Steve was up for a bit and looked decidedly better, though we shooed him back to bed after a brief time in the sun. After some final touch-ups to the décor the guests started streaming in; over a period of hours, more than a hundred people descended on 750 Cross Country road, with their dishes and tents and dogs and babies. Today was thus the real wedding day, a last chance.

Faro created a bit of a stir after being bitten by a dog who felt threatened by the little boy walking around with a big stick. The bite, right above his eye, produced a lot of blood and had all of us imagine hours in the emergency room, producing Disappointment number 2. Luckily we had a whatsapp group and were able to send a picture of the cleaned up face to the 3 Dutch family doctors in our party who signaled back that, with all vaccinations being up to date and the cut above the eye, there was no need for an emergency room visit. With a bandaid and the panic gone, Faro rejoined the party and was good until he indicated he was tired; a very rare thing for a 4 year old.

Sita and family lodged in one of the 3 RV campers parked on the field. It was quite cozy and convenient. I had rented an entire house via AirBnB house a short distance from Tessa and Steve’s, for most of the Dutch contingent. It was built in 1794, expanded, upgraded, with retrofitted bathtubs for small people, undulating creaky floors and good beds. It was perfect for us, slow wake ups, staggered breakfasts and late evening reviews of the events of the day, while sipping Cointreau out of egg cups.

Steve was roused from his sick bed, dressed up, in ways Steve does dress up, and positioned once more on the deck, and the ceremony took place exactly as Tessa and Steve had planned. It was lovely. Axel gave the bride away, Sita and Jim played their harvest moon song, we clapped and cheered, the sun was out; all was well. Later, after dinner, speeches and before the bonfire and silent disco, we sang the song that Jim and I wrote on the tune of Norwegian Woods about the couple’s courtship and 11 year runup to the wedding. Sita and Jim tried their level best to coax the 100 or so chorus to sing in tune and in tempo. It was a poor performance from a musical standpoint but luckily everyone had the words and nothing mattered anymore now that the couple was up front, beaming and married.

The potluck was fabulous. Some people had created the dishes that they submitted to the Harvest Moon cookbook that Axel and I put together. Others had parents with a restaurant (Woodman’s famous clam chowder) or ice cream parlor (Down River Ice cream in Essex) – and brought in the kind of large containers usually provided by caterers.

All the while Saffi darted around emptying the mason jars that Sita had so nicely filled with battery operated light, and refilling them with stones. The bottom of her diaper and back of her lovely pink dress covered with leaves and dirt. She was happy to be picked up by anyone giving them her winning smile. And so we forgave her instantly for the re-work she was creating for all of the decorators. We retired to our AirBnB when the party became a party of young people, had our Cointreau, massaged weary feet and retired.

We are turning our heads towards the next event, which is an Indonesian Rijsttafel tonight back in manchester by the sea; for me it is one more week of vacation.

After five years of planning this event, waiting for the harvest moon to show up at their wedding night, Steve was sick. Tessa and her friends nursed him as best as they could, while Steve got sicker and sicker, partially from the stress caused by his illness; as if a wedding day wasn’t stressful enough even for healthy people.

The day before, with Steve out of commission, the long to-do list was even more daunting and so we, the Dutch contingent pitched in for this do-it-yourself wedding.  But first we had our nails done, that is, the women in the party. Having your nails done before a work party is not such a great idea. I was glad I had not done my fingernails as they would all have chipped.

The nine of us descended on Sophia’s hair salon in Concord, some from as far as Brussels and Amsterdam, straight in with Delta, or from San Francisco, New York and DC.

I had supplied the Prosecco, colored plastic flutes, cheese, crackers and other goodies to keep us entertained and fed while the four Vietnamese nail technicians did the pedicures and manicures with smiles and in broken English.

Fridays was the big day but Steve remained sick. We brought him out for a bit on the little marriage platform, a dock supposed to be over the pond but now next to it because of the drought that had turned the pond into a mudflat.

He sat in his robe next to Tessa who held his hands as if to pass some current to hold him up, uncomfortably facing the 50 or so invitees for the intimate ceremony, who, in their turn faced him uncomfortably as he should be in bed.  Steve is not someone who likes to be the object of pity.  It was clear that the carefully orchestrated ceremony would have to wait. Luckily Tessa and Steve had had the good foresight to have two days of celebrations. There were more tears as Steve stumbled back to bed, leaning on his brother’s arm. It was not what anyone had imagined.He was joined by his also sick sister and they watched movies and drank Theraflu while outside we partied as good and best as we could.

The whole day was characterized by Disappointment. It wasn’t until after our fabulous macaroni and cheese dinner (of various kinds, including jalapeno and gluten free) that Tessa could relax. We sat around a bonfire and Tessa was finally able to laugh watching her Dutch relatives figure out the idea of s’mores with giant marshmallows precariously attached to flammable branches. It was a lovely night, except for the missing groom.

It is countdown to Tessa’s wedding now, six more days. I am taking the next two weeks off. We are now in New Hampshire, a work party to get the place ready for the invasion of a hundred or so people at the end of next week. We are cleaning and painting and stringing lights and baking. It is a DIY wedding, which means everyone has to contribute their labor. We made this weekend an intimate family work party weekend – not by choice, this last minute arrangement, but because it is very hard to get everyone in one place and healthy. With two small children in daycare, and me traveling, such occasions are rare.

It is the wedding she started planning about 5 years ago when Steve asked for her hand on the beach at Lobster Cove in the presence of lots of people. He surprised us, not with the asking but doing it in public; a daring feat for an introvert. Someone took a video and posted it on Facebook. It played again recently, as FB does these days, picking random or not so random posts and reposting them again.

Tessa and Steve have now been together for 12 years. She was 19 went they hooked up, she is 31 now. The marriage has been long in coming.

I prepared a slideshow for their wedding, a gift that I presented last night in a private showing with Sita, Jim, Axel and the couple in attendance. It had been my nightly second shift job for about a month. The slide show consisted of pictures from their lives, matching as much as was possible, with Steve’s history on the left and Tessa’s on the right. I corresponded with Steve’s mom to get the matches, for newborn, for family portraits, for birthday pictures, music, art, dress up, school, graduations, with siblings.

For this we dived into our archives and emailed endlessly, with attachments. In the process I went through several moldy boxes with flimsy papers that had documented Tessa’s (and Sita’s) intellectual, social and artistic developments. Everything that could possibly be of interest later I put in those boxes, even such silly notes to herself, written on ripped pieces of paper, “remember to practice clarinet.” It made its way into the slide show – one never know what may come in handy later.

When we revisited one box last night we had to laugh so hard that we could hardly finish our reading out loud. A car song, a jungle song, composed by Tessa at about 6 or 7; a sentence completion test (Love is…) where Tessa wrote ‘giving food to the poor.’ We came across her DARE workbook folder, certificate and stickers (a mandated drug awareness education program for school kids in the 90s that was implemented by local police officers). It contained a penciled letter from Tessa to officer Aiello, thanking him for educating her about resisting drugs. Priceless! I suppose it worked, we can say this now in hindsight, though she wasn’t always as compliant with her abstinence oats as officer Aiello had hoped.

I came home to a yard full of people: aside from Tessa and a friend, there were several young graduates from Quebec, frolicking on the beach and water. Most appear to have jobs, which added no doubt to the carefree splashing. Our friend G. and his wife who brought them here is helping Axel with his boat repairs which have lasted all summer despite promises of getting it in the water soon. The boat is needed to set out our lobster traps. So far we have bought our lobsters. It’s great to have friends who have no patience for half-finished work.

I took a nap and then surveyed the gardens where foot long cucumbers, a new crop of raspberries, an abundance of blackberries and much more were showing few signs of the now two month-long drought. The water ban is still in force. The smaller trees and bushes, on the other hand, look tired and spent.

Tessa’s wedding is now two weeks off and she has nightmares about things going wrong. I told her that everyone’s nightmare might be a hurricane touching down at the moment of the seaside vows, and yet this is exactly what happened at Sita and Jim’s wedding. It was exactly 6 years ago that hurricane Earl showed up uninvited at the moment supreme. It was a fabulous wedding even though the band declined to come and all the vases with flowers blew over and everything was wet.

The dreaded seasonal shift, from summer to fall happened the third week of August. It’s just a warning that summer is nearly over. It gets colder for a few days; there is a distinct shift in the quality of the air and I need to wear a coat when I leave for work around 5:30AM.

But then it always gets warm again, and humid, and we are given a respite. We may even complain about the heat. Oh how easily we forget.

Our garden is producing abundance: pickling and euro cucumbers, the enormous tomatoes are finally turning red, the cherries and mini cherry tomatoes seems to be in a hurry (and tight they are), and the eggplant is growing long and skinny, touching the ground, and being nibbled on. The chard stands fierce, bright green and enormous; the cranberry bean pods are turning yellow and their contents turning dark red as their names suggests. The potatoes are working their way to the surface; the garlic and shallots are drying nicely on the porch and in the shed. The kale (sigh), well, we planted too much again and swearing to not bother next year – too much, too large and not the right kind for the Dutch kale-potato stew we like to have in the winter. The large beets that look like radishes have been eaten and done with.

After the winds shifted swimming across the cove is not quite as appealing as on a hot and sweltering day. But yesterday was hot and sweltering and I took my habitual swim across-the-cove. When I was back on the beach our friend W. pointed at something round and shiny bobbing in the water. This turned out to be a lost baby seal. It approached me as if it was a puppy returning a ball. I was reminded of the children’s book ‘Are you my mother?’ Mom was nowhere to be seen. The pup was too young to fear humans (and W’s dog). We called the harbor master who called the NE Aquarium, but when the tide was high the pup had disappeared, we hope reunited with its mom.

Although I think seal pups are cute and lovely, even up close, I don’t really like to swim with ocean creatures. Even the striper that swam below me some weeks ago, beautiful as it was to behold, made me swim fast to the shore.

Recent and less recent former colleagues from MSH came by to visit us at Lobster Cove over the weekend. There was more nostalgia, thinking of good old times, remembering who was there and who is where now,  and enjoying the very good ‘now!’  I love those visits in the summer. We enjoy Lobster Cove as if we are visitors. When we are alone we get busy with so many things that we forget to enjoy this extraordinary little paradise that we call our home.

Lobster Cove is at its best during our much too short summer, between July and September. This is the reason why I declined to travel to Togo this Saturday to attend the conference of African ortho-prosthetic technicians – a group of professionals that feature prominently in the work I have been doing the last few years with ICRC and with wheelchair service providers. I rarely go to conferences and would have loved to go to this one, seeing many friends and doing some intelligence about what is happening in this world, so different and so far removed from the usual MSH networks.

But it meant giving up one week of Lobster Cove in August, which I simply couldn’t. Instead a young colleague is going. I will meet up with her the week after to participate in a post conference workshop with teams flying in from various Francophone countries. I will be back by Labor Day.

The American Labor Day signifies ‘back to work’ rather than celebrating workers and workers parties as the rest of the world does on May 1. It’s kind of typical of the zeal of American workers – with their short vacations (holidays) and long work days that always astonish my European relatives.

Our family labor will heat up significantly after Labor Day as we are finally all converging on Tessa and Steve’s Harvest Moon wedding party (September 16), an event that has been on the planning board for many years.  Friends and family will fly in from Holland, using the wedding as an excuse to come to America at a time that is particularly beautiful on the northeast coast. I am taking two weeks off and we will squeeze in as much Lobster Cove enjoyment as we can. I see much harvesting our oysters, swimming, snorkeling, kayaking and endless corn and lobster meals in our near future. Life is good.

We have yet another celebration behind us. It has been a busy month and next month, with Tessa’s wedding coming up, will be similarly busy with celebrations.

Last weekend we had a reunion of people who all started at AVS (the Association for Voluntary Sterilization, later Association for Voluntary Surgical Contraception, and now called EngenderHealth) decades ago. Some of us worked there for a very short time (like me, only 8 months) while others spent their entire working life there and have now retired. A few drifted off to other organizations (MSH among them) but we never lost our connection to each other and the stories from that time way back when.

This was the 33^rd anniversary of the founding of the Zugsmith Society, a literary/drinking society, created in a booth at Chumleys, under the book jackets of famous people. One of those book jackets was from Leane Zugsmith’s novel ‘Never Enough’ which was promptly adopted as the motto of the Zugsmith Society. We are happy to learn that Chumley’s (holy ground for the our Society) will soon re-open again.

We celebrated our septuagenarians. There are now several among us – a weird idea, considering that when this society was founded all those decades ago we thought 70 was outright ancient.

There is always the AGM (annual general meeting) and the agenda is loose but has to include a review of the year and our accomplishments, adventures, and mishaps; then there is the gossip about those not present, and a reading from the Wine Spectator. Since we are a literary society we read Shakespeare  and studied the theme of Discipline vs Indiscipline through quotes from famous people, adding our own (mis)interpretations to their wisdom. For nourishment and libations there was good wine and lobster. As the years go by we drink less but more expensive and as a consequence our AGMs are less rowdy. When enough was eaten and drunk we assigned the organization of next year’s AGM to those not present, another ritual. We hosted this year’s meeting because we were not present last year. That’s how it goes.